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I'm sorry that entry was a little crazy. I fixed a problem I had. Don't get me wrong, there's a lot I need to fix after but I'm on the right path.

I'm going to make more art. Possibly a new zine. Hopefully a collaboration? I can't tell you any details. I can only tell you it'll be a blast!!

I feel overwhelmingly stressed. There's a lot of pressure on me all the time. Between taking care of family, my job and personal issues. I feel alone and unwanted. I know its not true. There are few people who would give an arm and a leg to talk with me.

But there's a cloud above my head. This place doesn't make it any better. You find yourself trying to make new friends and most probably won't even reply to a message. Hell, sometimes I don't. It's hypocritical, I know.

You attempt to be constructive and people who you think are or were your friends suddenly don't have time for you. But you'll see them in journals, enjoying trolls or people you would think don't deserve as much attention with petty things. Perhaps it is art that isn't important enough. It's the common stolen pictures in PhotoShoped graphics on profiles that demand more.

Oh, I'm rambling. It's only a site after all.



And god forbid someone you think has half a brain would talk to me? Nope. They keep to themselves because it's, "cool".

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NLW
06:04 Apr 23 2015

Yeah, and then some of the people you talk to turn lout to be creeps. Not you, though. I've been sort of keeping my distance and mostly just reading stuff on here lately. School and a couple other things taking my attention and energy. Didn't feel I had much to give to a conversation. Too distracted.

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Doru
15:33 May 28 2015

I am always open to conversation. *smiles*

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Here's the link to the piece I finished today. Click me.

Below are the words I posted on my page as a tribute. :)



As you know the other page admin here is Spencer, my boyfriend. April 7th, we lost a very dear family member, his dog Rhett. Rhett lived to be 17 years old. I drew this as a memorial for him. We love and miss you a ton, Rhett! You meant a lot to all of us and you never failed to make us smile and fill us with happiness. heart Rest in peace puppy. ♥ (I may do a series on him. He was such an adorable guy. ♥)

Click THIS if you want to see my newest art. Custom frame and ball point ink pen. Its a gift request from my uncle, for his wife. :) Like my Facebook page - www.Facebook.com/TheArtistRose if you want to see updates that are easier than reading my journal. Or if you want to see things I haven't posted here. Its hard to keep up on my vr journal.



Life update- I got new glasses. Round cats eyes. Figured in honor of my favorite movie, I'd try an impression of Enid Coleslaw. :) I wish I could meet Daniel Clowes one day. What a fantastic artist.

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NLW
02:31 Apr 16 2015

Nice! I liked the movie. I didn't realize it was a graphic novel. The glasses look good. You're actually showing your eyes! :)

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I gave the radio guy the gift. He loved it! I'm going to schedule another day for the podcast. It takes some time to make but it'll be great. :)



Also, earlier this week my boyfriends dog had passed. I want to draw a memorial for him.

I haven't been on here much. I was angry for no reason. Almost angst. Well. Probably angst.

Anyway. I'm here to say, I'm going to a podcast tomorrow for mürmur. I'm going to surprise the radio guy with a gift. :) A picture of himself.

I wish I could afford to frame it but I'm flat out broke. Lots of shit in my life, man.



I'm going there after work. Yup, got a new shift, hopefully it stays.

The podcast goes out in a month, I think. This will be great. Can't wait till the rain and weather changes so I can perform my arts outdoors.

Been going through a lot lately. I guess things happen for a reason. Yesterday I got a job offer for a birthday party. But I'm not a caricature person. I gave them my email anyway. I'll show them my rules on my site. If they ever get back to me. I don't hold my breathe with people. A lot don't do what they say lol.

Arts been slow, because I'm in a bit if a struggle and the holidays will take up my time.

Happy Easter and happy Passover. :)